After another week of being on the fix I think I have decided I'm officially done with it. It's a great program but it's really just NOT for me as I just don't feel as good on the meal plan. The workouts are amazing and I love love them. But the meal plan isn't working for me as far as how I feel. And since I decided when I started beachbody I would absolutely stop dieting for the sake of dieting I think I need to remember that. My internet soul sister Kehau and I were on Voxer today and she talked about how she felt like it wasn't aligned with her mind and that clicked SO much with me. Then tonight I watched a video from Fully Raw Kristina about why she went vegetarian. That video REALLY clicked with me. She talks about how she started eating meat after a stint vegetarian because she felt she had to for society and because it was what everyone said she should do. That REALLY hit home with me because I have been mentally struggling with that exact issue. I felt amazing eating mostly vegan and eating more carbs and I know that I can find a way to reach my goals with that diet because I know many people with that diet who look like freaking rockstars. It's funny because when I think about the 30 day push (goal setting program) the idea is to live a life with goals in line with your priorities. So why am I choosing to continue to pursue a goal with a meal plan that is NOT aligning with me???? Pressure to try it because it's essentially the diet every nutritionist has given me. Pressure because I'm ready to be at my goal weight NOW and feel like I am a pseudo fail because I'm still not there yet. Pressure to fit in and not have to have accommodations for my food tastes. Aside from the pressure I'm realizing that my food tastes are starting to change in not a good way. Fresh produce doesn't have the pop it had before and that makes me sad.
So I declare that today. Well I guess tomorrow since I ate dinner a bit ago and am done for the day...I am going back to eating what makes me feel good and energetic. Lots of fruit. Some vegetables. Lots of RAW produce. Dinners of plant based foods. Delicious foods that feed my soul and keep me balanced mentally unlike how I feel right now. I also am thinking about getting the Ultimate Reset and starting with Kehau on the 30th of April. I have done this program twice before and it is truly a life changing experience. After all this back and forth I think I might do it to just reset mentally. I'm going to decide probably in the next week or two on purchasing it!