So a few months ago, at some point between my experiment into Insanity and starting the Ultimate Reset I was kind of drifting. I was sure I wanted to lose weight but I wasn't sure that it could happen or would happen. I was just kind of going through the motions.
Pinterest has a health and fitness section and I often peruse it looking for recipes and fitness blogs and cool sayings. It's great for that. One day I ran across the Fleur Meets Fitness blog as a post that someone put up. I saw the before and after that made me want to go to the site. So I did. And I ended up reading every single post on her blog. Short story - she has lost an amazing amount of weight by deciding that she was going to take a year and dedicate it to weight loss. I feel like I haven't found a lot of blogs on weight loss that I identify with like this. She had one blog where she wrote about giving up and how this was going to be the time she didn't. Well right on sister. So much that she said were thoughts that crossed my mind and . And I got pretty amped up. Because I started to have "I can do this!!" thoughts that started to push out the "Why are you still bothering?" thoughts that had taken over. You see - you can't actually win at anything - weight loss, career goals, life goals - if you don't actually believe you can make it happen. To reach the hard goals you have to have motivation and you have to believe it is worth it and it is possible. If you don't have that, then it is almost impossible to convince yourself the sacrifice, changes, challenges, and hard work are worth it. And you start to slip. A cookie here. A skipped workout there. And next thing you know you are doing 25% of the work necessary to achieve 100% of your goal and wondering what happened. You have to have that believe in yourself and believe it is possible, bottom line.
So what did I too next? Made a 3 step plan to success Well the Ultimate Reset was step 1. Because if there is anything I had to accept it was that my sugar addiction and my inability to deal with my cravings (and just say NO sometimes) was killing me (literally and figuratively). And the fact that it was advertised as helping with both of those meant it was worth the money to go for it. With the food part handled, on to step 2 - Get serious. If there was anything that I realized while reading her blog it was that I had to make a conscious decision to do this. And decide to put in the work. So that's what I did. I picked a program (Turbo Fire with some Les Mills Pump mixed in) for the month of October and printed a schedule and posted it in my "gym" (what you don't have a home gym? ok me either, it's just what I call the area in the basement where I do my workouts, haha). And then I committed. I committed that I was going to do this and do it right. Which meant if I was going to keep bitching about how I couldn't lose weight I had to be 100% about this. So back to 5am workouts and 10pm bedtimes.
Step 3? Well that's were I'm at. It's continuing the work I established in steps 1 and 2 until I get to the goal. I don't really have a goal weight. I never really have and probably never will. My first goal is to get under 200 lbs because while I don't have a goal weight I do know that a healthy 5'9" girl is probably not over 200 lbs. I know the kind of body I want and I think that I can get there if I continue to stay focused, keep planning, stay motivated, and keep believing in the outcome.