Today was day 10 for P90x for me. I splurged a little this morning as I've been kind of on a little retail therapy kick this weekend and bought myself a little something special - a set of sportblocks!
I love them. Like seriously love them. My old weights were a messy jumble and they didn't actually weigh what they said they weighed and I couldn't change them fast enough. Now I just set these and go go go! I didn't buy the stand, just the weights because the stupid stand was almost the same price as the weights. I sit these on my old transfirmer and that is a flat enough surface. The stand would be awesome - taller and at an angle...but not worth the cash for me today. Anyway, these weights are amazing and I can tell I'm getting a better workout because I'm using the appropriate weight.
Today's workout also made me think a lot about my progress so far. I have done really well over the last 5 months. So well it's hard for me to even really wrap my brain around...it's why I take so many progress pictures, it helps me see what I can't believe yet.
So now, I'm in this incredible mental place. I'm now at the point where I really want to start focusing on pushing myself to get to the maintenance phase. I'm not that close to it - I have at least another 40 lbs to lose. But I think that I'm at a point where I am seeing the body changes more than just a shrinking body. I am starting to see some definition in my arms when I flex and very slight lines on my stomach. When I lift weights during P90x I can see the muscles now. I am starting to realize that my body is going through a major change that I can control. That's why I decided to plunk down the money for the sportblocks today. It's why I am about to do some major diet adjustments and start focusing on my diet more during the work day (meaning drinking my water, even if it means a million pee breaks) and staying away from the candy jar (Tabby will have to help me here!). At home I am going to stay dedicated to my workouts and my clean eating and I am going to steadily tweak my diet for better satiety and make more dishes at home.
Essentially, the last couple of days I have really realized not that I can do this. But that I AM doing this. I AM making my body healthy, strong, and well. I am driven to be the women I have dreamed of being....the only factor is time.