Mindset of a Weight Loss Winner

This week has been amazing for being back on track after travel.  I turned down pizza at a meeting at work and cake at a birthday celebration today.  I exercised 3 days in a row (taking a rest day tomorrow) and have only had one meal outside of the house this week (which is awesome for me). I'm feeling really good right now and building positive momentum.  I have stuck with the no junk food challenge except for this am (had a breakfast sammy from chic fil a in a rush, my one restaurant meal).  I struggle with breakfast...I need to make a casserole or something that I can easily take with me on the go.  I was looking at a new to me blog and found she has some really good suggestions for breakfast.  Her go to breakfast is apparently 3 boiled egg whites, oatmeal, fruit  That's a note I wrote down b/c it's portable (so I can pack it in my bag to eat at work) and it's also usually available at hotels when I'm on travel.  Double win.

I am realizing in reading blogs of women that have lost a lot of weight that mentally - they are on another level.  These women are doing the things that we all do - the planning and grocery shopping.  But they also have just a great mindset.  One that says " I've decided to lose weight and eat healthy and NOTHING is more important than that."  At least that's what I read in these blogs.  They don't lament the pizza they couldn't have when everyone else around them is eating it.  I'm sure they notice it, I'm not pretending that they don't see the food.  But they have their goal as priority and instead of being sad about what they can't/don't/won't eat (which is what I do) they just accept as fact that they won't eat it and will eat {insert healthy option here} OR they say I will have this {insert special food here} because I'm at {insert place that is rare/special/will never return to} and this food is something I cannot get at home so I will split/order a small portion/only pick ONE special thing off the list and make sure I get my calories burned and not splurge again for a little bit.

I'm not there yet.  I've never been there - which is probably why I can't lose and keep the weight off.  I tend to be upset and mad and angry that I can't eat what others are eating or what I want to eat.  I get really emotional and that is usually when my willpower fades.  I am not sure what to do with this and how to change this mindset.  Does it come with success?  Does it come with being at goal and being scared of going back?  Or is this one of those things that happens "when the time is right" and you can't force it? I go through times where I have this but I don't really know why I have it at those times or how to get it back when it's gone.  It's something I need to really search for and figure out.

In the meantime - I just need to fake it until I make it.  I need to just focus on eating right and when I need to choose the bowl of fruit or salad or grilled chicken instead of pizza, ice cream, or chinese food I need to tell myself - "This is how you get to your goal so this is better than the alternative."  I need to remind myself that all of the clothes and outfits I keep pinning on Pinterest that I adore and want to wear will only be options if I keep picking the fruit and the grilled chicken and hummus and veggies.  I need to remember that the healthy life I've been seeking since I first joined weight watchers TWELVE years ago can only happen if I do what is right.  Pizza and chips and cookies are not the ways to build a strong lean athletic body that can go into any store and buy a straight size pair of jeans.  Fruit and vegetables and eggs and oats and lean protein are the way to get the body I want.

If you read all this - thank you for sticking with me.  I'll be revisiting it very often....especially when I'm in a situation that I am struggling with.  I have told a few friends - I want to lose 50 lbs by Christmas.  Christmas is 24 weeks away, so that's a pretty hard core goal.  But I want to go shopping after Christmas sales with a body that I can be happy with and being hard core is the only way I'm going to get there.  I'm going to probably kick, scream and cry for the next 6 months - but if that's what it takes - then that's what it takes.

Game on.