Time for a Change

Okay, so if you read my blog regularly or follow me on instagram (@healthyengineer) you know that I haven't really been all that excited about my P90x journey so far.  I LOVE the workouts...but I am not getting the results I should be getting 30 days in.  Maybe I'm not lifting heavy enough.  I don't honestly know.  I have really no clue since I have seen people shrink with this program. The only thing I do know is that me +P90x right now aren't working out so fantastically.  


For a while I was determined to push through it.  I thought that since I made this commitment that I would be a failure if I quit the program.  I thought that I wouldn't be giving it the good old college try and it would be unfair to not give it the full 90 days.  But then I started realizing that honestly - who gives a damn.  Really.  My goal here isn't to best any program but to get in the best shape and health I can get in.  And if a program isn't giving me what I need, then I need to stop and re-assess.  

I realized that it was this thinking - that I'm quitting or I'm failing - that has been something I have struggled with for YEARS with weight loss.  I have the wrong mentality.  It's not quitting, it's fixing or re-adjusting, or just doing something new because I want to do something new.  This isn't a 90 day mission to lose weight, it's a rest of my life mission to be better for myself.  So that means that if it's broke I need to fix it.  Because if I don't fix it, this P90x feeling, then will I be able to give my all for the next 60 days?  Did I miss an opportunity?  Exactly.  

So with all that said - it's time for a change.  I scoured the internet and found a basis for a new program - a INSANITY ChaLEAN Extreme TurboFire hybrid.  What?  Yes.  I have owned ChaLEAN Extreme for years and never actually done the program because I never had the weights for it.  Then once I did I was just kind meh on the program.  Recently I've seen some amazing results from my teammates that have been awesome and have me re-thinking it.  What I didn't realize was that those workouts are shorter - most under 45 minutes, which is also a plus because I would get to sleep in just a little more than I do now.  I already adore INSANITY and TurboFire as you know, so I feel like this is an opportunity to add in the weights but still get the cardio I think I need right now.  I never thought of combining these programs like this at all.  

So the plan is to take this schedule and stick it on the wall and start this tomorrow.  I'm going to do this like P90x - give it 30 days and see.  I believe that I will know relatively quickly - I did with every program so far - if it's going to be right for me or not.  I'm excited for this but a little nervous since it's got some hard hard cardio days.  I will keep a log here of course and let you guys know how I like it!!